Who does not love to have the Deja Vu of their old life ?
School life has always been a bliss. if i recall the past,it wudnt take a lot of effort to remember it.
Bunking the early life i should rather speak about the middle school,the most amazing part of it.
Life as a new teenager... Wooow(i cat stop giving this expression).
You feel the world revolves around you,you want to do things you way,the immature impulsive way.
You don't have the power to reason or analyze things in details..
You just shift from playing football in the evenings to the "Addas" .
The source of re-creation. You shift your focus to Hindi Movie Songs and "Raj" becomes your hero,Or at the max,you become Raj.
How can i be an exception to that ?? "Raj" deeply influenced me... "Naam toh suna hoga".. Dilwale Dulhaniya le Jayenge..
"I wish my dad was as cool as Anupam Kher,n i can call him POPs",i used to think about it all night long,cant say i used to dream as i used to stay up all night and think.
Thus came thr craze of the most important thing at that age,Enter 'The Girlfriend',cell phone at our age wasn't that much of a craze..
I was then in the Eight Standard..
Life Revolved around few few selected person n things.
My Bicycle(My Ducati),My Dad(My pocket money),My friends,My Girl Friend(No 's' here),My stereo player,Books(you can never run away from them,rather i thought i have to impress her mother for the daughter n my dad for pocket money).
Every evening used to be a joyride.. Late conversations after tuition s,discussing,which girl is the best for me or new movie stuffs.
It used to be so damn simple and innocent,never i wondered things would turn up this complicated.
Things have changed so much now a days. i look at my juniors now a days,they are hardly 15 and smoking,drinking and what not.. Shocks me but then this is the new generation,maybe my Dad looks at me the same way.
Coming back,finally i meet this girl in my tuition class,"Yes,she is the one,my 'Simran'.. the heroine.. Fair,pretty,beautiful and charming.. what grace.. Dude im in love with her,i will marry her and we will live happily ever after"..
My friends,they were of my age group,it excited them as much as it did me,thus in a few days slam books interchanged,in a few months proper talks n in a year "Darling i love you,Tujhe dekha toh yeh jana sanam pyar hota hai deewana sanam"..as simple as that.
This is what i call innocence,this is simplicity of childhood,unlike now.
The best way to define it,my friends were as much happy as i was..
That relationship however lasted for a few years.. "i still claim her to be the most charming person ive met in my life,yes she is."
A young and new relationship, education outside n distance killed it before the mind actually developed.For guys it develops a little(very)late when compared to the other sex.
Soon enters college life,when did school life get over ? Let the Hangover end man..!!
I need some time,please.
Being from a mediocre city it would usually take some time for a guy to settle down in a metropolitan city,not my case as i went out early for my high school at a more than mediocre city,this is how i define Kota.
I already know how to live alone to live without th parents so no home sickness..
hey im into college..
Calcutta is a great city.. I meet this Girl.. She is pretty,smart,sober,beautiful but sadly complicated(never knew this before).
The most interesting part she being a Catholic while i come from a not so hardcore Bengali family.
Yes I actually fall in love with this girl.. Story is simple,the Mother hates me like an American hates an Iraqi..
Spent the most amazing time with her,was quite an experience.. I was In Love,True love... what an experience..
But we broke up again... She falls in love with a different guy.. Yes she does,Unless she again starts loving me.. look at at the complications
What not did i do,what not did i try... Is this how you feel when you start attaining maturity ? Is this the most awaited lesson of Life ?
Is is essential to feel so pathetic ? But then the wisdom that you get is worth the hardship..
A price has been paid to attain this Moksha..
The loss of innocence,the loss of sentiments,the loss of emotions,the loss of childhood,the loss of friends,the loss of Simplicity.
What would you call it ? Maturity or Degradation ?
A guy who used to hate smoking becomes a chain smoker. Bottle of appy in hand changes to a Beer can..
The morning smile is replaced by a mourning face. The happy go lucky guy changes to a lonesome loser.
My mom even finds it tough to figure his son now,the creator is confused.
I do cry but there is no one to feel the tears,no one to put a hand on this shoulder.
Irony is that,the guy who always gives his best to keep his friends happy n smiling doesn't know how to keep himself happy or to make himself smile.
I make others laugh,i make fun of myself,i crack stupid jokes i make a complete fool of myself.. I dont feel bad,if it makes you people smile..
This is how i console myself by saying "yes shanu you are awesome" n i pat myself..
*Just last evenings incident..
The mother of the girl whom i used to love just gave me a new nick name. Guess wat ?
"PLAGUE"..loL
I stay alone out here,my mum my dad my sister no one is out here..
I just say to myself,she too has a son,he too will grow up,he too will love a girl once.. Will he be also be called a PLAGUE ??
Will it..
A special thanks to all my friends who have atleast tried to put a smile on this face.. Thanks.
You people are awesome and the best..
I just thought of writing about this, guess most of you are shocked.loL
This is me,the real me..
My teenage is just to get over in about 19 days 18hrs and 42 seconds...
Thought of setting it free here..
Lodsa Love.
God Bless And Stay Awesome..
High Five..
I choose to smile.
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